fel...dun be bubu...

okok....update update

2008-07-27T22:13:00.001+08:00

okok.....

just coming back to say HI....

I'm still alive....

busy with work....and sch is back.....so.....its hectic!!!

assignments r back.....exams in nov.....

still wanna play......

Time Tested Beauty Tips by Sam Levenson

2008-05-13T22:22:00.001+08:00

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed;
Never throw out anybody.

Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.

As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

i can't be there....i'm a invisble character...

2008-03-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

with such incidents...

i can't be there with you....

i can't be there for you....

i can't comfort you....

i only can stay invisble till the incident is over....

how i miss you....

how i wish to see you soon....

i await for monday to come quickly....

i will be a good girl....waiting for you....

2008-03-24T11:46:00.002+08:00

quotes:

when we are together, i hope you will stay longer, i hope you wouldn't leave, but when you say you cant, we are what we are, you will feel guilty, you will feel painful. then what about me? i'm feeling painful too.

i always look foward to seeing you with a smile. but now, even from a distance, i will tear. i can't control my tears. i am not me when i see you now.

updates on my life

2008-03-09T19:10:00.002+08:00

heeee...sorry for the lack of updates as i'm busy....

well....school had started in the evening, ended my citibank job....

fyi, i'm doing BA in Communication Studies & English Language, Unisim degree, full time but held in the evening....

was supposedly to move on to a events job but the boss came up with new terms of no OT pay, if OT on school days, i have to skip school....so haiz....first day of work was the last day....

after which....wanted to mediacorp publishing as ad-admin...but at AMK....too far away from home....travelling is a KILLER....waking up at 5+am is a KILLER too...

now...landed a permanent events/exhibition coordinator at harbourfront centre....will start tommorrow.....

it's hard to find a job that will enable me to balance my school work well.....

well....if you wanna see pictures, view them from my friendster or facebook...

chaoz....

pictorial updates as usual

2008-02-03T09:51:00.000+08:00

Well....updates via pictures....

Bridesmaid day on 27th Jan 08 @ Holiday Inn Atrium

With new tube dress....

chinese new year....and so happens my birthday is on the 7th feb, haha....but of course CNY is much a bigger day than me....dad's on 8th feb...i intend to buy cake and have a celebration at my grandma's place....

moving on to a new job soon to do events coordination....overseas projects in China and Bangkok in April and May..... =)

school has started....HECTIC!!! evening classes of only 2.5hours.....very rushing.....and SIM assignments are piling up...i had decided to defer 2 modules to cope with my work and studies....

enjoy ya chinese new year...though i will kinda bored by it....haiz....

gong xi fa cai!!!!

am i?

2007-12-31T11:07:00.000+08:00

am i too wild for you handle?

am i not attractive enough still?

am i not interesting enough still?

am i not girly enough still?

am i too over the top?

am i too open and honest with my words?

i don't like to hide, i don't like to lie in front of people i love and treasure.

i don't want to withhold my personality so that guys can find me gentle to like me.

i am me. i am who i am when i'm out with anyone.

then why am i still so alone, so without a boyfriend?

yes, guys are woo-ing, i enjoy the feeling but i'm not interested in them.

when will i pick the right one and he will pick me as well? when will he loves me for who i am?

Girls' Words MEant...

2007-12-16T09:13:00.000+08:00

if i dont call you[ Its because im waiting for you tocall me ]

When i walk away from you[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cursing at you[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst[ Tell me i am beautiful ]

When you see me start crying[ Hold me and tell me everything willbe alright ]

When you see me walking[ Sneak up and hug my waist frombehind ]

When im scared[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you[ I really do more than you couldunderstand ]

When i grab at your hands[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you[ i am hurting inside ]

When you break my heart[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over[ i still want you to be mine ]

sorry for lack of updates =)

2007-12-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

let the pictures speak for themselves

at weixiong's 21st birthday party, got him a L size Zara polo tee

with buddy dino, isn't he getting blacker?

the rp SAs
at amin's 21st birthday (on the same day as weixiong) - got him Phillips Swarovski Earphones

with Glen

the 3 of us
the 2 birthday boys

with amin buddy on a random sat chilling night, isn't he getting plumper? haha

dinner with nurul

at work

after belly dancing, went sunglasses shopping - gucci sunglasses!!

been busy with work the past few weeks. tiring but as i said fruitful! =)

i'm a confirmed student of SIM, waiting for the offer letter to come.

so happy that i learned belly dancing, been working a sweat off by dancing 1 1/2hr non stop every sunday and i'm losing weight and shaping up my hips and ass. i'm getting in shape as the days goes by. =)

still searching for my xmas date ...

new beginings

2007-11-17T07:16:00.000+08:00

life's been better with the new job at citibank, tons of paperwork to handle but at least it's a fruitful experience and cute guys to go lunching with, not to say my pri sch friend whose lunching occasionally lunching with me as well, and also SHOPPING Spree during lunch hours is fun. =)

but these few days hasn't been sleeping well, having weird dreams. sleeping around 11am, will wake up around 3-4am, back to sleep and awake again by 6am+.

this morning dreamt about SA, student ambassadors from RP. I guess i'm griefed about the dying state of this interest group. haiz.

next, knowing certain truths doesn't set you free, instead giving you fear, insecurities, confusion and emotional burdens. and this part of struggle that i have, i do need a man to help me unhook from these.

my close friends are getting engaged, married, ROM, having kids, colleagues from citibank are mostly in those states as well. The world is getting MARRIED like anything. and woo....i'm fearful of this....

life without a man

2007-11-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

to women, most of us, to me

having no men in our lives pose emotional burden, at least the time being

2 serious relationships end when i was no where in my life

the 1st was when i dropped out of A levels and worked

the 2nd, current one, when i'm waiting for Uni next year Jan

did i chose to be left with nothing when i already had nothing?

work is boring, no new people to mingle with, no new work experience to learn, backstabbers everywhere

friends are busy with their own partners, their work, their school

i can't rely on them 100%

i was cold, i was a workaholic in RP, i kept myself busy with work, i numbed myself with school work, with cca, with friends, therefore i can fight loneliness

a woman need a partner to rely on, i realised all this while though i was independent and had a career woman character,

deep in my heart, i'm a woman, with a soft heart, wanting and needing a man to rely on emotionally

having no man to look forward to meet, to go dinner with, to miss, to call, to sms, to think about, to talk to, to go walks with, to travel/drive with, to buy stuffs with, to look at things at, to smile at, to laugh at, to share, to complain, IS SAD...

i believe this is the truth for women, that without a man, we can't have a complete heart/life

women are creatures who give and want to receive love

man are just suckers, suckers for sex, for company, for a break in their routine, for receiving love, how much emotions do they invest in us women?

my life now is blank, but i'm filling it up with a new job in the bank hoepfully (which i will know by mon/tue), to learn driving, carry on my part time job over the weekend, meeting up with friends and hoping to keep myself busy till school comes

life sucks! we can't have everything we want to have, we always have to lose some, to feel pain, to regret, to grow stronger emotionally

but will all these make our hearts hardened to ourselves and others? will our happiness and smile be indeed from our hearts?

only we know.

yes, women have to love ourselves more than loving men.

shopping @ vivo....

2007-10-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i bought clothes for myself....

went a shopping spree just now in the evening @ vivo....to prepare to look good for cousin's wedding dinner next week.

bought 2 dresses (pink and green), a lady looking belt @ forever 21 --> HAPPY!!!

2 clutches from charles & keith & mphosis --> i actually bought 2. haiz. temptation. =)

makan asian kitchen of dumplings, spicy soup and plain water. tabao some home for family members as well.

i lost 4kgs in 1 month, 2kgs due to my widsom tooth surgery and the other 2 due to change in my diet and some (very little and mimimum) exercise. heee... :) even my colleagues mentioned i slimmed down. GOOD!!!

looking forward to work, fun dating and chill outs with friends. and my SIM application status soon.

goals for the next few months

2007-10-18T09:32:00.000+08:00

1) gonna start my driving stuff

2) earn money by going for my part time work more often

3) more outings with my friends

4) practise my mahjong skills

5) exercise and slim down by 9 more kgs

6) watch more tv shows

7) detox my body and eat healthier food

8) shop for more clothes, bags and shoes

9) love and pamper myself more

10) love my friends more

Coco Chanel Quotes

2007-10-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

Dress shabbily and they remember the dress; dress impeccably and they remember the woman.

Fashion passes, style remains.

Fashion is not simply a matter of clothes. Fashion is in the air, born upon the wind. One intuits it. It is in the sky and on the road.

In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.

A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.

The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

As long as you know men are like children, you know everything.

Success is often achieved by those who don't know that failure is inevitable.

How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone.

Don't spend time beating on a wall, hoping to transform it into a door.

The best color in the whole world, is the one that looks good, on you.

A women who doesn't wear perfume has no future.

Elegance is not the prerogative of those who have just escaped from adolescence, but of those
who have already taken possession of their future.

A woman is closest to being naked when she is well dressed.

If a man talks bad about all women, it usually means he was burned by one woman.

I don't understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little - if only out of politeness. And then, you never know, maybe that's the day she has a date with destiny. And it's best to be as pretty as possible for destiny.

There goes a woman who knows all the things that can be taught and none of the things that cannot be taught.

Luxury must be comfortable, otherwise it is not luxury.

There is time for work, and time for love. That leaves no other time.

There are people who have money and people who are rich.

I invented my life by taking for granted that everything I did not like would have an opposite, which I would like.

Elegance does not consist in putting on a new dress.

Nature gives you the face you have at twenty; it is up to you to merit the face you have at fifty.

Fashion is made to become unfashionable.

Fashion is architecture: it is a matter of proportions.

Those who create are rare; those who cannot are numerous. Therefore, the latter are stronger.

My friends, there are no friends.

Great loves too must be endured.

A style does not go out of style as long as it adapts itself to its period. When there is an
incompatibility between the style and a certain state of mind, it is never the style that triumphs.

Elegance is refusal.

Since everything is in our heads, we had better not lose them.

I love luxury. And luxury lies not in richness and ornateness but in the absence of vulgarity. Vulgarity is the ugliest word in our language. I stay in the game to fight it.

Look for the woman in the dress. If there is no woman, there is no dress.

Jump out the window if you are the object of passion. Flee it if you feel it. Passion goes, boredom remains.

Some people think luxury is the opposite of poverty. It is not. It is the opposite of vulgarity.

It is the unseen, unforgettable, ultimate accessory of fashion that heralds your arrival and prolongs your departure.

I don't know why women want any of the things men have when one the things that women have is men.

A woman has the age she deserves.

Innovation! One cannot be forever innovating. I want to create classics.

Why am I so determined to put the shoulder where it belongs? Women have very round shoulders that push forward slightly; this touches me and I say: 'One must not hide that!' Then someone tells you: 'The shoulder is on the back'. I have never seen women with shoulders on their backs.

When I can no longer create anything, I'll be done for.

Material things aside, we need no advice but approval.

Youth is something very new: twenty years ago no one mentioned it.

Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of death.

I was the one who changed, it wasn't fashion. I was the one who was in fashion.

A fashion that does not reach the streets is not a fashion.

Scheherezade is easy; a little black dress is difficult.

May my legend prosper and thrive. I wish it a long and happy life.

In fashion, you know you have succeeded when there is an element of upset.

I've never done anything by halves.

My reason for choosing diamonds is that, dense as they are, they represent the greatest worth in the smallest volume.

what attitude, what class and flare. gonna learn from her. =)

new life

2007-10-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

decision had been made

i'm free

i won't have to hope for anything anymore

it's a relief

4% of my 100% wisdom had been extracted

2007-10-03T10:46:00.000+08:00

4% of my 100% wisdom had been extracted

had my 4 wisdom tooth extracted yesterday at Alexandra Hopsital...
woooo....was warded to a private ward to change to surgery gown and robe....

then was brought up to day surgery theatre, interviewd by 2 nurses, my anaesthetist...
was bought to the OR, lied down, poked my wrist for IV...asked my dentist to be gentle and not ruin my face....haha....then breathed through a volatile anaesthetic through a facemask....smelly sia....

was thinking of him before i knocked out....

woke up at the call of my nurses....throat was very dry and painful...vomitted out the medication and my bloody clots of my gums on my gown....that was not nice....gauze was vomitted out as well....
then realised they inserted the tube into my throat to ease my breathing....need to go loo and realised menses is here to report....
rested a while before wheeled back to my day ward....

gauggled my mouth with water....PAIN....blood all coming out....drank some apple juice and they changed my gauze for me....lied down to rest a while before he came back to see me....
miraclously, i can speak...but gently and not moving my jaw too much as the stiches are holding my gums....
changed my gazue the second time and rest till 12.30pm before was discharged....

got home, only managed to eat half a small bowl of porridge before heading to sleep again...
thank goddness, my face didn't really swell or bruise....only gums are swelled up....but i can't bite food and i can't move m jaws too much....

today, again i ate porridge and mashed up fruits....not much pain.....

pics....

day before surgery...looking pretty with new eyeshadow...

pontianak effect....
temporary butterfly tattoo...
look at my lazy rabbit...

x-ray of my teeth

smelly bloody widsom teeth

mashed up strawberries for today's snack....

those with wisdom tooth.....get it out and ask for general anaesthetisa....it will be all over before you realised....

About my Birth Month....Feb....

2007-09-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

Abstract thoughts. ---> Always happening

Loves reality and abstract.

Intelligent and clever. ---> Always present

Changing personality. ---> When it comes to the affairs of the heart...

Attractive.

Sexiest out of everyone.

Temperamental. ---> When it comes to the affairs of the heart...

Quiet, shy and humble.

Honest And loyal. ---> Always present

Determined to reach goals.

Loves freedom. ---> Always present

Rebellious when restricted. ---> When it comes to the affairs of the heart...

Loves aggressiveness.

Too sensitive and easily hurt. ---> When it comes to the affairs of the heart...

Gets angry really easily but does not show it. ---> When it comes to the affairs of the heart...

Dislikes unnecessary things.

Loves making friends but rarely shows it.

Horny.

Daring and stubborn.

Ambitious.

Realizing dreams and hopes.

Sharp. --->Always present

Loves entertainment and leisure. ---> Always present

Romantic on the inside not outside.

Superstitious and ludicrous.

Spendthrift. ---> Always present

Tries to learn to show emotions. ---> Always happening

jokey

2007-09-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

joke as adapted from meiyan from a forum...

enjoy the joke....haha

One of the main reasons why in recent years the Singapore Government has always ensured that their Miss Universe representative were of tertiary level education or higher was because of the following incident which occurred not too many years ago.

It is the final round of the Miss Universe Pageant and the 3 finalists, Miss USA, Miss Malaysia and Miss Singapore are being asked 3 simple questions:

MC: The first question is name me an electrical appliance starting with "L"

Miss USA: Lamp

Miss Malaysia: Light bulb

Miss Singapore: LADIO

Judge: No, no, Radio does not start with the letter "L"

MC: I am going to give you 3 more chances; Now, name me an animal starting with the letter "L"

Miss USA: Lion

Miss Malaysia: Leopard

Miss Singapore: LABBIT

Judge: No, no, no!

MC: Your next chance. The name of a famous car that starts with "L"

Miss USA: Lexus

Miss Malaysia: Lamborghini

Miss Singapore: Lolls-Loyce

Judge: Oh my God!

MC: I am going to give you one last chance! Name me a fruitstarting with the letter "L"

Miss USA: Lemon

Miss Malaysia: Lychee

Miss Singapore, with full of confidence, smiles and says: LIEWLIAN!!

This is not the end of the story, the Judge consulted the board of judges to determine if Miss Singapore should really be disqualified ; and they decided that since Miss Singapore was having so many problems with the letter "L", they decided to give her another chance.

Judge: OK, the final question is : Name me a human anatomy starting with the letter "L"

Miss USA: Lung! (applause)

Miss Malaysia: Liver (even more applause)

Miss Singapore: LAN CIAU

The Judges fainted..!!!

it would be nice....

2007-08-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

the friends around are bissfully in love....

some getting married....some engaged...

feeling JEALOUS....

it would be nice to have you by my side forever....

first skyride and luge experience.....FUN...

pics to update life

2007-08-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

ugly working uniform and a small, dusty working environment...3 shifts: either 7am-3pm, 11am-7pm or 3pm to 11pm...

so tired during night shift...

answering phone calls, report printing, wake up calls....lalalala....

with my colleague, mali...

met up with stc gals....

met up with 3 generations of SA...

KTV night with STC gals on National Day...

Packing PCH's luggage...
romance in the sunset....how long will it last...

after watching secret with him.....

sakura dinner buffet and rush hour movie with army buddies....glendon and amin....

my life now is WORK and FUN.....

awaiting for uni entry to SIM in Jan.....

letting myself off the hook

2007-08-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

i need to let my self off

let go of myself from this thing

i know i love being in this thing

i want to be happy

but you can't give me the joy i need

it's only tears, saddness every moment i think about it, even for 1 second

i'm tired

i need to let go to let myself off

new baggie....

2007-07-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

new baggie.... LV Neverfull...

as the name says it's BIG in capcity but can be adjusted at the sides to make it smaller....

long LV paper bag....

it's BIG!!!

see....small in size...

sian ah

2007-07-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

not gonna go NUS,so waiting for NTU's reply

but meantime i'm gonna get a job in the hotel service industry and do a degree in hotel and tourism management in dec or jan

sorry for the lack of updates

damn sian and lazt to upload pics....haha!!

view friendster for new pics ya.

meantime, MEET to GO OUT FRIENDS!!! =)

2007-06-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

zoo trip...

had my princess like treatment on the horse carriage and my first ever elephant ride....

daily pics...

our sweet love

2007-05-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

updates with tons of pics...
went midsummer night's dream @ fort canning park

instead of usual wine and titbits, we had chena food

collage of us
his first prepared meal for me

my expression when he's back into the car

eye makeup these days
glamorous sunnies

best durian puffs from joo chiat

after which, met amin and glen for cycling
life contains so much mysteries

cheeky expressions

at juno's salon (haru) @ far east

a night walk @ esplanade

great drawings from local students from nus high school. theme was a continuous line..

gv goldclass @ vivocity for pirates

at the lounge
very good service and ambience
sleepy....
so comfy....
too comfy till wanna sleep...
random pics of my rabbits...

presenting xiao bai and ashy...

lazy fellow
after bath...

happy with life now.....happy to hear those words from his mouth and heart....happy to feel his touch truely in my heart....i'm touched by his honesty....

and yes elaine, love needs a lot of COURAGE... :)

funfair time

2007-05-25T11:01:00.000+08:00

been busy with being a good relief teacher in GESS, sorry for the the lack of updates.

ended my relief teacher assignment on the 22nd may and now is slacking time till university approval. haha, as if. i will find a part time job to pass by some time.

photos speak a thousand words.

bye bye GESS and my students

ktv with amin and glen

ready for a fun time

uncle ringko's funfair @ woodlands

went bumper car ride first, $5 per person

then this swing thing $7.50 per person

nervous and feeling kena swung out of my seat, was very fun

hugging the biggest crayon shin i ever seen in my life

till then, off to midnight summer's dreams and gv gold class on monday for pirates ($50 per person but with seafood dinner)

new adopted bunny

2007-05-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

4th may...start of mid year exams for GESS students....

was dozing off while invigliating them...haha...the torture of being a teacher, kudos to our ex-teachers!!!

in the staff room waiting for my scheduled slot to go to the class....

went SPCA after work...saw 4 bunnies, 2 were totally black fur, 1 spotty and other mostly black with traces of white fur...

we had our eyes on him...2 months old, very small, light and ultra CUTE!!!

decided to adopt him, its name is ASH!!!

got him a cage the next day...one leg hanging...

on the sofa exploring his new world...

biting the stickers off my laptop...

He's so CUTE, hyper active and full of spirit to explore his new surroundings. He EATS A LOT and SHITS alot!! haha.....hei you people out there, go adopt PETs from SPCA instead of always buying new ones...

life these days

2007-04-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

been having some fun time and pissed off times as relief teacher....some students are damn attitude....haiz....

anyway....gonna update with pics for my trip to the jurong bird park on sat...

be fabulous!!
fabulous shoes!!!

new collection of shoes over 2 months!!

shall end here...

busy with kids

2007-04-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

been doing relief teaching at gan eng seng sec....mmm....it seems to be a different school as of what i know of last time....the kids were challenging...haha...but hienz i have quite little to do with them, i don't have to teach them, just help to check their CA marks and babysit them...

is gentleness in men missing? it seems men are so rough, be it words, actions and even feelings. Why would a guy treat his girl with shitty treatment especially during quarrels?

bored, need to purchase new clothes to suit the image of being a teacher. haha.

be fabulous you all!!!

where we go from here?

2007-04-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

sungei boloh natural reserve walk in the sat morning...

haunted mangroves....
JB Malaysia
under the sun...
pinky glow after 2hrs of walk...

collage

east coast cycling on sun...

justin & rudy...

dinner & movie @ suntec

with the long penile guy...haha

me touching it...
groupy photo

had a lot of fun meeting up with friends and burning some calories...haha

gonna be teaching at gan eng seng sch, home econs!!!! theory only la, not actual cooking.

burdened and haunted by bad memories....yet i had to go through it alone....

reunited buddies

2007-04-02T11:02:00.000+08:00

Real LG HP chocolateat vivo city

what a waste of chocolate to make this stupid hp

reunited for bowling and spicy food

dino, the weird left hander bowler

weixiong, the ballerina bowler

and our scores, i gotten the highest, 96!! =)

outside safra mount fabar waiting for cabby

more meet ups my friends. =)

updates with tons & tons of pics...

2007-03-31T19:38:00.000+08:00

Year 3 Graduation Night 2007

RP had casino!! how cool is that, and we bid an iPod which sold for $330.

Year 3 Graduation Ceremony 2007

with my yr 3 SAs

with SA juniors
me and my diploma, flowers and cowy

with my buddies, rudy and lee

losu vuitton joke saw at vivo bag shop

gotten my last gucci cap in singapore

new cowy pillow from barang barang

random daily pics

like with tons of spotlights

gonna do relief teaching for pri/sec schools. meantime i'm free, ask me out. :)

back alive

2007-03-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

kinda not used to not blogging, so i'm back to blog a bit. haha.

will update soon with pics.

:)

blog is closed

2007-02-15T20:04:00.000+08:00

this blog is officially closed to end the chapter of my life till this date.

to know me, add me on feliciahu_7@hotmail.com (MSN) and call/sms my hp to hang out to chat/dine/shop/slack/ktv.

i'm currently working for starub maxonline, so you might hear my voice now and there while waiting for uni entry.

thanks for all the friends who stood by me these times.

thank you gerald for being there for me and you know i will soon.

i know i will be in happiness every single day of my life from now.

be blessed everyone. muacks. :)

painful, sore-y, swelling eyes

2007-02-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

sun-burnt due to wild wild wet

big aunty coming

non stop waterfalls these past 2 weeks

been very emotional, stubborn, temperamental

sorry dear

hoped after today's and tonight's words and actions

will strengthen us

muacks.

had a wonderful birthday celebration but that's all

2007-02-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

7th feb was my birthday, went wild wild wet then celebrations.

shopping of clothes and stuffs.

flowers.

recorded sound toy.

chijmes.
fruity birthday cake.

gobi small cakes.lovely.

love my hair colours.

the sad side of me.

thanks but that's all.

8th feb was my daddy's birthday, we went for makan feast then family shopping.

double celebrations these 2 days. was great.

happy birthday to aziz (6th feb), eugene yuen, kong yuchu and don tay (7th feb feb) and rendall (10th feb).

thanks to all my friends who wished me well:

zebin

gerald

eugene yuen

edwin ng

amin

glendon

weixiong

hadi

andrew

jacintha

ernest

ahps pals

umesh

rudy

lee

desmond

edmund

valeria

my sisters

muacks.

leaving my last messages to SAs

2007-01-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

to year 2s via friendster:

alright, i'm leaving rp very soon, just to let you guys & gals know that you all are like my kids and i treasure every single one of you. thanks for all the wonderful times we had spent together. i wish you all the best in rp. i will be around in sg still, so jio me out if you guys want ya. do excellent in ya pp and fyp. muacks, felbubu. =)

to year 3s via friendster:

hello all, we are leaving rp like VERY SOON. thank you for all the wonderful memories we had created and laughed along. all the best to ya future, i believe it would be a fantastic one for all of us. to the guys going NS, haha, GOOD LUCK, must "keng" at the right times to kena less from ya OCs, hehe, except kenny. to the gals, most of us would either continue to uni or work, no matter what, reach for ya dreams!! let's go out if you all are free, cycling or makan, let's arrange one. take care. muacks, fel bubu.

pic adopted from amanda:

and as for that fucking bitch and whore, you are a fucking piece of shit. Yr 1 and 2 reading this, see her true character, what she is in front of all of you is just PRETENCE!

can graduate in peace

2007-01-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: February 7

Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.
Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.
You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

random pics:

i heart u

2007-01-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

though it was under the sun, the love i felt was sunnier than the sun

i know you love me

yes, i heart u

but we know it would be only be as it is

thank you my man

1/2 yr anniversary

trying to be funny as usual

sorry seems to be the hardest word

2007-01-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

the feeling i had are summed up in this song:

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

pictures taken the past few days:

fake looking dog

me

my fyp team

yr 2 sem 1 gals

my aunties and uncles

with some of my cousins, niceces and nephews

fyp is over. pp next on wed. just wanna start another phase of my life.

my hair is FINALLY straightened!!!

2007-01-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

see my straightened hair....like FINALLY....thanks to rotten boyfriend.....

my pretty pet rabbit...she's a great poser...

gonna be very stressed and tight this 1 week till next wed...due to fyp colloquium and pp presentation....sianz...

to the rest....hang in there...

backing to dating scene

2007-01-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

i realise it is of no use to be singularly attached to a man who doesn't want to have a future with me.

with such, i'm back to the dating scene.

retail therapy and hanging out with a new date was cool. i love the feeling of being woo, being taken care of and chilling out.

was showered with a pair of PVC black shoes, fcuk "player" black tee and a pair of sparkle sunglasses. thank you date.

just waiting to get out of rp, earn money and shop all i want.

gucci is hiring part-time sales at $6 an hr, not a bad deal, being surrounded amongst the leather smell. hee*

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.
Your negative traits:
In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.
Your ideal partner:
Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks
Your dating style:
Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert.
Your seduction style:
Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.
Tips for the future:
Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.
Best color to attract mate: Sky blue
Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

Pisces - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring.Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your partner has ever met.You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with.
Your negative traits:
You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood.It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should.You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest.
Your ideal partner:
Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreamsIs a total romantic, with an artistic or creative sideLoves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways
Your dating style:
Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners.
Your seduction style:
Fearless - you try what your partner suggests, no matter how unusual.Loving. You'll take your pleasure second, if necessary.Internal. A lot of your enjoyment takes place within your head.
Tips for the future:
Be more realistic. Your romantic ideal is nice, but it may just not happen.Let go of your fear of rejection - it's holding you back from being with your true love.Open yourself up to a new love. The person you think you want make not be the one..
Best color to attract mate: Seafoam green
Best day for a date: Friday

What's" Your Love Profile?

know me better,and know yourself better rotten boyfriend.

going out now. chaos.

my fav and loving friends

2007-01-12T11:05:00.000+08:00

it's been a while i last met up with my SAs, especially rhe year 2s and year 3s...

miss them so much...

anyway....SA....haiz....chaos in the future...i wish the yr 2s all the best...

as for me....haha....UP & DOWN.....shit.....

death note 2 >>> the last name

2007-01-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

watched death note 2 yesterday at PS 11.30pm till 2am++, reached home 3am+. this is one of the best movie around with plots of twists and great story. very sad ending though. go watch it ya.

just finished DIY my nails. had red rhinestones on my nails. hee.

my skin is having some allergic reactions, having red flashes on my cheeks. trying to calm my skin as much as i can.

meantime, let's survive through another 5 weeks. =)

pics pics pics

2007-01-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

pics from escape theme park....

pics from happy bar...

pics from thursday cycling....

after 2 hours of cycling....

amin say acting mariah curry....haha

confirmed that i had widsom teeth, one on each side of my lower back jaw....i got to go for surgery to remove them....will do so next month after my schooling in rp ends....

today went the roti prata house at thomson area.....the egg prata not bad, BUT the waiting time SUCKS!!! so i won't wanna go there anymore.

puchased 2 pieces of new bras well, i'm was at 36B and now at 38C. haha. do you know that 70-80% of our bosom is made of fats? girls out there, let me teach you a few tips to enhance the growth of your bosom.

a) massage the outer skin of your little fingers using your thumbs twice daily for 5 minutes

b) massage and press 7 times at your armpits when showering

c) massage the fats around your tummy and armpits towards your bosom when showering about 10 counts

d) massage our own bosom by massaging them inwards for about 10 counts

e) invest in good bras that are comfortable, fits and gives good support e.g. if you can wear btw 34 -36, choose 36 which isn't too tight, you hook the 2nd buckles instead of the 1st

f) when putting on bras, ensure all bosom, including the bosom top and sides goes into the bra, choose either 3/4 cup or 1/2 cup to cover or reveal some bosom

g) don't wear bras when sleeping unless you are wearing bras without metal lining

h) use bosom firming cream if you want, but keep OFF body lotions/skin lotions etc from bosom, only use products specifically for bosom

results might vary in 2-4 months time if you do them diligently. =)

could it be??

2007-01-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

having some gum/tooth ache.

at the back of my lower jaw teeth....saw a burst gum on my left, and kinda saw a widsom tooth on the rise...the right feeling some pain, could be also a widsom tooth....wisdom tooth extraction is a minor surgey....which cost about $400 per tooth...gosh!!! so ex!!! my man gonna accompany me to see a dentist tomorrow....widsom tooth is scary....so if you feel pain at the back of your jaw, do check out with the dentist before it's too late!!

i'm having my fever now @ 37.6....

happy new year

2007-01-02T12:18:00.000+08:00

went to devils' bar for countdown and clubbing with my male + gal friends. their live band is cool. but kinda have a bit of age-ing people around, so we decided to change location at 3am.

we went to a gay club, called happy at tanjong pagar, which is closing from 1st jan onwards. OMG, the gays were marcho (they had abs), good looking, rich, tender and gentle. most of them were down to their trunks, a lot were making out, but i felt they were really loving couples.

gay couples are so sweet to each other. unlike a male + female relationship. having tons and tons of shit quarrels, misunderstandings, secrets etc. clubbed till 6am, slept till 12pm. went out again.

went shopping with my guy friend yesterday at gucci as well, he bought a wallet and gotten me a bag.

it's burberry VS gucci. Gucci wins of course.

dreaming of owning leowe. they are having a display at DFS.

guys investing in shoes. saw a nike shoe that cost $1999, brown leather, limited edition, only 100 pairs worldwide.

to conclude 2006 for me:

SHIT YEAR!!!

and now. 2007 resolutions.

1) good grades for the last few weeks of schooling in rp.

2) slim down more.

3) get a part-time promoter job that pays well (contact lens seller).

4) shopping.

5) decide what's gonna happen btw me and him.

6) good skin.

7) be happy.

8) travel around the world after feb.

it's infuriating

2006-12-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

i'm infuriated....and men friends are much more reliable to go party and play with.

i'm GOING OUT today and the next 3 days to PLAY PLAY & MORE PLAY....

happy new year to you all...

new pics + reconciliation

2006-12-28T10:16:00.000+08:00

went to watch this movie with man....as that day marks our reconiliation....

a very funny movie.....catch it....

interesting shops in vivocity....

hotdogs for dino.....

junior mints for my juniors....
senior mints for the rest of us....

another interesting named shop....very cute name but there's no one in the shop always...try their authentic hongkong dim sum....

the 125 years old bear....with sapphire and diamond studded eyes....

beary xmas tree at harborfront centre...

vivocity xmas tree from far....

an interesting capture where female office ladies chopped a table using umbrellas.... ('-')
my cutie rabbit...

uzapping at home....haha...

self protriats....

highest number of strikes my man has....cheerios!!!

and finally to scare you all with cock-eyed me...

i dunno how long we can go....we let time decide....

meanwhile....FYP's report is finalized, just waiting to do hard binding....

school's gonna start soon....everyone would be so SIANZ....

lonely christmas 谁来陪我过这圣诞节

2006-12-23T20:06:00.003+08:00

我住的城巿从不下雪
记忆却堆满冷的感觉
思念的旺季霓虹扫过喧哗的街
把快乐赶得好远

*落单的恋人最怕过节
只能独自庆祝尽量喝醉
我爱过的人没有一个留在身边
寂寞它陪我过夜

#merry marry christmas lonely lonely christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
lonely lonely christmas marry marry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的像街上的纸屑
repeat *#

电话不接不要被人发现我整夜都关在房间
狂欢的笑声听来像哀悼的音乐
眼眶的泪温热冻结望著电视里的无聊节目
瘫在沙发上变成没知觉的植物

repeat ##

谁来陪我过这圣诞节

number of blings in a day's outfit....SAD & LONELY XMAS

2006-12-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

been long since i took self potraits.....and also a declaration of the number of blings i can wear in one day's outing....

i'm hating my hair....

pimplefree....

i love u music bear and letter f bling on my pink hp....

my bling guess bag from amin....

my bling f letter on a necklace....

my bling ring from my man....

my bling m)phosis slacks from my man....

get well soon my man.

this xmas would be a lonely one. most of my friends are either at work, sick, on duty or with their own partners. i'm alone this year. anyone wanna date me out?

lonely lonely christmas

merry merry christmas

loveliest pre-xmas

2006-12-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

my man won't be able to accompany me for xmas eve and xmas....haiz....so he compensated me these few days by showering me with many many presents, nice food and tender loving care.... thank you my man.....

he bought me another skull head tee from forever 21 and a superman bling bling necklace...we are going to exchange the bling bling necklace for some other things...coz too x le....

met him @ 4+....went marina square to see the chocolate santa clause....lol....1meter tall...

after which we went defu lane...where we had lovely dinner....thai style veg....great tasting....corn flakes prawns....pork ribs...and finally CRAB in superior broth....GREAT tasting...a rating of 8/10....BUT....we had some bowel movement after 1 hour.....haha.....so how? good tasting food but perhaps a mishandling in some food....wwooo....wonder if i'm going back the next time....

i bet you guys heard a lot of rumors about how great tasting food had hidden agendas....let me share a few....

1) HOTDOGs - made by animal's blood, fats, unwanted meat parts (butt), skin

2) Mcdonald's Fries - once cooked, can be preserved for 1 whole month - imagine the amount of preservative used

3) Chicken Essence (the black bottle tinky) - dying chicken's blood

let's all cut down on eating processed food and fast food....

preparaing for xmas

2006-12-22T11:32:00.000+08:00

mon activities.....RAIN RAIN RAIN..but didnt' spoilt my mood in getting out of my house...
met my man in the afternoon, to celebrate our 5th month anniversary....i received a bouquet of colourful lovely flowers....

dunno why i was captured with this look...haha

on the way to suntec...xmas deco at raffles hotel...classy....

suntect orchid garden show...

the biggest orchid flower i ever seen....from taiwan...

me showing off the orchids....

the orchid xmas tree....

looking fantastic....heee***

with mr. grasshopper and ladybug...

arty pieces from local florists...

with singing santa....

the flower glows...

snowy scene....

after which we went lau pa sa to have our dinner....RAIN RAIN RAIN the whole day....

before the orchid display...i went to visit dino who had a tonsils removal operation...accompanied him for 2 hours at TTSH...bought me YAM ice cream as he requested...haha...recover soon and well buddy....

xmas tree from bugis....

diamond studded star from sookee...

obscene PIG at bugis....haha...

anyway..i gotten xmas presents from my man....skull head top from forever 21, m)phosis bling shoes, paul smith floral power 100ml perfume and more preseentsss....thanks and muacks to my man....

i'm thinking of getting my tonsils checked as well....having throat infections very easily, feeling pain everytime i swallow saliva...mmm...should check out with dino....

happy holidays everyone...and i'm going escape theme park tomorrow....

merry xmas!!! with lots of love....

forever 21 is the best shop to SHOP

2006-12-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

aimming to purchase some stuffs:

skull heads top from forever 21 - $38 + $28
jumper from forever 21 - $48
bottoms from zara - $80
m)phosis bling shoes - $24.15

and MORE....let me strike 4D!!! forever 21 is the best shop to SHOP indeed.

went shopping with olivia yesterday evening at vivocity, purchased some blings, a letter F, earrings for my mum and olivia's necklace...a pair of shorts...tons of food from chocolate, breadpapa, marks & spenser biscuits and lime juice.

anyway, i won't be working at carrefour as i need the extra time to refine my FYP report and EXERCISE. More cycling, swimming and jogging. I would be going rock climbing with elaine and veron on this tue.

but just to show off some pics:

amin is damn cute la....cutie friend of mine....i looked damn ugly on passport size photos...

yesterday besides shopping in the evening with olivia, i visited the animal resort at seletar in the morning with my man. didn't take pics coz didn't bring camera and my new hp batt's was flat. i saw turkeys, goose and geese, black swan, rabbits, parrots, dogs and cats which are VERY CLOSE in contact with me. i love visiting animal farms. makan jack's place food with my man at parkway parade, mmm....very oily...no more jack's place in the future.

this week's schedule:

mon - fyp meeting, cycling

tue - swimming, rock climbing

wed - accompanying my man coz he's sending his car for service again, shopping in the evening with sisters

thur - jogging

fri - swimming in the morning

sat - singapore exlporing

sun - xmas eve

new buys

2006-12-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

gotten my new hp, nokia 7390....powder pink flip hp....not a bad phone...girls are suckers for flip phones and PINK casing...haha...

i'm thinking of sending it to have rhinestoned...haha...coz there's the beige part in the front view...which is kinda ugly...my man say i will be tired of the rhinestone look one day.... =(

anyway, i just changed my internet service provider to starhub, and i get a laptop free for its promotion....BU starhub customer service and starhub B1 shop @ tiong bahru...wasted my whole day today by waiting for their callbacks....finally internet service is activated at 6PM...gosh!!! my family had been surviving without internet service for almost 1 week....it's a terrible experience!!!

i'm still feeling sickly, with my ever non-stop attacking throat infection....hate it!! i can't eat delicious fried or spicy food. My man had therefore had been accompanying me to eat soupy stuffs. we are now addicted, mostly ME, is addicted in drinking advocado juice from alexandra village, i can drink it EVERYDAY, yummy flavour and texture. try it, it's GREAT TASTING.

rushing PP these few days, think gonna buy time from Mr. Daniel Phee to complete at a later date coz i'm not feeling well enough to type the report.

congrats to selvan for making through BMT, he POP le, enjoying his holidays now!! missed him, hoping to meet him up next week. i wanna arrange a cycling day for SAs, time for some practice for me, my blue-blacks had ceased and it's time to start again.

wanna quickly earn money and SHOP with AMIN!!!!

HUAT AH!!! haha~~

2006-12-10T09:13:00.000+08:00

my 1st bigger win in 4D....3266 last night in starters....didn't win like a lot but quite a good amount la....i bring LUCK to my man...

my 1st win was in ibet for 2785..and i won like $6....haha....

so this time starts the roll of WINS for my man and i....so as the title says, "HUAT AH!!!" lol~~~~

recovered....

2006-12-09T09:04:00.000+08:00

back to healthy life...well almost....still sneezing though and a bit of pain while swallowing saliva....

had durian yesterday with my man @ serangoon area....better than those geylang ones man....

my man bought me tees (supergirl and wonderwoman) and a bling bling cap from superheros series at suntec....superman & supergirl....heeee***

will take pics and upload them...

meanwhile....gonna rush my PP while working @ carrefour with amin....man...hours of standing..... =(

cooommmeee ooonnnn.....let us strike 4D...... =D

ill

2006-12-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

ill-ed

despite minor injuries the past months, the eye infection and the deep cut at my left feet, i was never really sick till now.

Finally i am ill for the first time since Feb this year, when i checked with my family doctor. Down with throat infection, cold and slight fever. I was sleeping the whole of today. I missed eating durian, chicken wings and all. =(

i would be working at carrefour with amin this holiday, earning some quick money for more shopping. Hee**

meantime, PP to be done by this 2 weeks.

some pics to share:

buddy amin and i at orchard for some shopping:

trying to act as volin pro
regular me

the cycling experience with SAs on sun was great, we cycled more than 2 hours. But i gotten some minor injuries like blue black at my left ankle. It was all fun though. Gonna arrange more cycling trips with SAs.

meantime, thanks for all the concern from the SAs and my man.

muacks to all. =D

cycling entry...

2006-12-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

cycling entry...

i finally took some time and courage to learn how to cycle properly. I cooked pasta, salmon and vegs from 8am to 9.45am. After which, my man and i went east coast park to have the breakfast i prepared.

Here comes the cycling part. It was tough in the begining. I had difficulties in balancing, therefore always lan-ga lamp posts, grass and other people. Haha. But i managed to pick up the tricks and able to CYCLE now. Not prefect, but at least can cycle without assistance, and without injuries.

I hope i will remember the cycling tricks, coz tomorrow's an outing with some of my SAs, gonna be so ma-lu if i fall. Haha. Anyway, i will tell them i only learned cycling for 1 day, actually only within 3 hours.

My man says i'm a fast learner. =) We are going cycling 1 every 2 weeks. Yeah!!

Thanks my man for being my cycling teacher.

ALL THE BEST to DINO for tomorrow's 42km run. wwhhhoo....

wish me luck in tomorrow's cycling as well. =D

rainbow after the rain

2006-11-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

rainbow after the rain

went to school in the morning, went class, saw NO ONE!!! then remembered today is lab session. I was in shorts and birkens, NO ENTRY to LAB!!! haha~~~ my man U-turned back and sent me home....BLUR ME....

then went watch HAPPY FEET with my man @ vivocity gv. very cute show. my man say the morale of the story is to eat less fish. BUT i love eating fish. =(

after which my man started working, checking payments and sending goods to his boon lay girlfriend. haha~~ i slept during the car ride.

went whampoa to makan...went mount fabar....then home....

felt loved, comforted and cared by him once again.

but ya, the life span of a rainbow is rather short.

frustrations...

2006-11-26T19:20:00.000+08:00

I'm glad i had round up my FYP, just 1 more final one at late dec. Need to submit my PP by this month or later dec. Attend and get my As during my 3 modules, and i'm done in RP. But before i leave, i have 1 f***ing issues to settle:

FRUSTRATION ONE!!!!!

damn **** i don't exist in her eyes ya??

f***ing bitch to ruin the culture of ours.

you think you can do it all without us, f*** you!!

you hadn't witness my contributions since yr 1 and so don't f***king act in front of me!

f*** the actors in front of her.

if i wasn't acting like a "gentleman", i would confronted you and f*** you.

you had demolished all my heart, passion and service to this group. f*** you!!!

i'm coming back to challenge your and some others' authority in this group.

FRUSTRATION TWO!!!!!

the fact of setting restrictions on me is still hindering my progress with him.

so what if he knows how i feel, it's still a selfish relationship.

sometimes i really don't know how to express my feelings to you.

we just have to sliently part each night.

when i need you, i'm 2nd to your list. you can't be there for me, you can't call me, you can't come see me.

i feel like crying now, but you can't do anything. everything is the next day, the next few hours.

the depression mode of abnormal feasting is back. i'm upset. i can change the fate of SA but i can't change the fate of me and him.

pictures from the motor show

2006-11-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

yup....pictures from the motor show...saw more really nice cars....but i'm not a pro in car admiration....so......ya....and why must they have THIN, VERY THIN & KNS FACE as car models in Singapore motor show?? i believe there are MUCH PRETTY ones who appeared in JAPAN motor show and all.....haiz....our standard....enjoy the pics if you hadn't been there....

new brand i think....mitsouka....

Swiss brand....nice colour....

STAR of the SHOW....LEXUS series....

GO-KART.....
TOYOTA ones...not bad ah...can't see exhaust pipes...

FERRARI.....

DUNNO what brand....i think honda....

Subaru....belongs to a sporean..

Alfa Romeo.....

Lamborghinis.....

The beauty....$1.8million....

Whhaaahhha....more pics soon....

updates with words

2006-11-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

alright...back to some blogging with WORDS....been busy with FYP Report...thus was inactive in blogging and was lazy to type...thus the updates with tons of pics...coz a pictiure speaks more than a tousand words....

anyway....my FYP report...finally over and done with the 1st draft...5,200 words, completed in 5 days...wwooo....thanks amin for the company while was finishing my report on thursday till 8pm and my man for giving me moral support, buying me chocolates, sending me home, bringing me to makan the best food in spore...

pics taken over the last 2 weeks.....

CLEAN & GREEN WEEK...

HEH HEH....with PM LEE...tall man....my 2nd time meeting him....

IN CELEBRATION OF 4th MONTH with MY MAN....bouquet of roses....

INTERVIEW ON CHANNEL 8...ZAO AN NI HAO....

NEW HAIRSTYLING METHOD...nice??

WAITING 4 BUS....at 7AM....i wanna sleep.... :(

LATEST SMILING PIC....signs of aging.....can see??

HAD INJURY ON HEAD....bandaged by Eugene Seah....haha***

HIPPY HOPPY STYLE...suits me??? love the cap....thanks my man....

will update soon with MORE PICS...from motor show, SA Appointment Ceremony, my meetup with my primary school friends @ Huitian's birthday.....PICS PICS....

saving up to buy some stuffs....thin camera....lappy....hp....more clothes, bags and accessories....and do my PP.....

cheerios!!!!!

updates with pics...

2006-11-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

crods in action.....

tioman trip....29th-31st oct....

2006-11-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

my lovely tioman trip....enjoy the pics....

hay daries farm visit....14th oct 2006.....

2006-11-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

alright....the next few posts would be tons and tons of pictures.....

these pictures are my visit to hay daries visit on 14th oct 2006, sat

wonderful friday

2006-10-28T07:37:00.000+08:00

past few days were SHOPPING DAYS....thanks to my man who is the main sponsor....coz i'm going tioman...

bought a few tees from forever 21....bikini, shades from far east....more tops from taka....and my man gonna get me my boardshorts later....

yesterday amin, my man and i were GREAT FUN...

we shopped from6+ to 9+....after which we went vil'lage (past mache) at heerens to makan....had some good food...and tons of liquid forfeit for me....losing to amin and my man....

then my man willingly sent amin home....despite traffic jam along KJE....haha....

later gonna go for vote against litter for RP and NEA in TOWN.....wwwooooo.....

going off to tioman over the weekend

2006-10-24T10:16:00.000+08:00

i would be going to tioman, some islands in malaysia with my sis, olivia and a group of funny male friends...

hoping to relax and rethink about me and my man....

meantime, i hope to enjoy my off days from now till thurs...though i have to go back school tmr for SA event in the morning and fyp after that...and a meeting on thurs evening....haiz....

**peace**

FUCK

2006-10-21T03:28:00.000+08:00

this post consists of vulgarities...please abstain if you were be offended...thanks...

f*** him and her

f*** the time limit

f*** that him will consider her

f*** that him don't understand why i get fucked off

f*** myself for loving him

f*** myself for crying when it doesn't improve him & me's relationship

f*** it's time to give me surprises

our mmMMmmooo000ooOO fever

2006-10-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

our mmMMmmooo000ooOO fever:

look what my man gotten me.....a 2nd cow whose gender is questionable....no milk ducts to indicate female nor a penis to indicate male...itz sexless....hahahaha~~~

so its name is sexless buttermilk....

see how cute it looks....

my companion to sleep....

sexless buttermilk will accompany me in school from now on....

thank you my man for sending me to school and fetching me for dinner and home diligently almost everyday....love ya...muacks.... =D

tearing

2006-10-12T10:32:00.000+08:00

how to differentiate between happy tears or sad tears?

2006-10-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

feeling grieved during sat....I HATE the time limit!!!!! everyday and everything is the same old reason.....f***

anyway....i visited the cow farm on sat morning....Vishnu Cow Farm @ Lim Chu Kang Lane 8, Farm 6....

when i stepped in, the cows were moo-ing at me.....guessed they are happy to see MALE (my man) and also they seemed HUNGRY.....haha.....

they looked so poor thing confined in a small space, they seemed lovly dovely to each other though...

i observed some things they love doing....

1) licking and sucking each other ears
2) licking their mouth non stop with their long tongues

Vishnu, the Indian's god...

the milking device of cows....

they looked sleepy....

mating bulls and cows....

see....licking......

can see the bull's penis erected....long man....abd bloody looking....eeeee...

they fought but i couldn't get the pic....the black 1 was trying to get on top of the other....gay bulls....

their resting positions...

cow with milk ducts....

baby cow....so innocent....

array of COWS.....

buddies???

Mmmmmmooooo00000ooo....

thick hair.....

tried their chocolate milk....isn't thick and concentrated like those in the stores....quite nice actually, thin chocolate flavor....good milk....

my man, haiz........sorry.......please give me time to adjust.....goat farm visit on sat okiez? muacks....

pics....

2006-10-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

stuffs bought at SA fundraising by my man....

hand painted shoes by my SAs, retro belt, personalized cloth peg from andrew, song dedication and lollipop....

personalized cloth peg from mentee andrew....

special date bears from my man....7th feb for my birthday....17th july for our anniversary.....

hair tied up.....

thinking of rebonding.....

i should......

sunrays will wrinkle your eyes....get a pair of UV protected sunglasses....

do i look healthy??? the bear which screams I LOVE YOU when pressed....bought at SA fundraising....

thinking of bleaching my teeth.....

us for the festival dinner....steamboat....

he just gotten a haircut like kenny.....hahha....

proud of my juniors....spent some quality time with my buddies....love them very much....

tired....

2006-10-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

woke up like 5.45am....took bus 961 at 7.10am to woodlands, reached 8.10am, reached class 8.30am, on the way talked to tricia, sam and jane.....

off to hectic med tech day.....

after school, SA workshop.....counselled some junior SAs....packed and reached rpc at 6.50pm....

all worn out....my brain was feeling deep and heavy pains......gosh~~~

my man fetched me home coz he knew i would too tired....thank you my man....=D he gotten ikea chicken wings too....heee....yummy....

looking forward to a good sleep tomorrow night...

all out truth...

2006-10-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

told my man more about me....shared with him my younger days' pictures.....

wondering how he's viewing me in whole....and how we are going on in the next few months....

a hardened heart is the worst a person can own....i can't feel love, or believe in love....what i had was pure fun in the past.....

school life is excellent.....

the past is ugly.....i wonder how my future love life would be like....

our night safari trip....

2006-10-01T10:52:00.000+08:00

past few days had been hectic....been reading through all the SA evaluation forms and deciding the fate of SAs....we had a total cut of 30+ SAs....we are now 80 (including Year 3SAs)....i feel relieved now....after "cleaning" up SA, as i tried my best to stretch the number of SA we can have.....i really hope the year 2s can from now on take on a mre active role in running the IG....

therefore had caused me sleeping very late (1am)....so my man was really thoughtful.... he volunteered to send me to school from thurs to fri.....and sending me home after which....we had spending some good quality time the past 4 days....

friday night....we went night safari....it's quite a great place to visit in singapore actually...youcan really see the animals quite up close....really big animals you can see....but kinda ex....$28 person including the one tram ride.....but once in a lifetime, it's worth it....we both enjoyed it very much....the walks in the dark deep trials....you all should visit it.....

sat morning we had wonton noodles from old airport road, it's our 2nd visit...nice....another 1 to recommend would be at jalan kayu....wwooo....the noodles are all hand-made......very QQQQQ.....hawker food aren't so bad after all.....

i had my durian mooncake on sat....damn nice man.....thick flavours.....mmmmm.....gonna get hold of black sesame soon....and ice cream mooncake.....traditional double yoke....shhiiioookkkk....

then had KFC yesterday night....it's been so long since my last crispy breast meat from KFC....so sinful but GREAT TASTING...and my man said i seem slimmer again....heeee****

also bought some stuffs from SA Fundraising...will upload later ya....

upset.....

2006-09-26T09:36:00.000+08:00

i'm upset about changes we have to had in SA....i hate to release people unless for the worst come to worst situations....and this time it's a big number.....and i have to put a front of seriousness, iron woman and cold blooded about it....

new advisor...new direction....new culture....but cold-blooded....

we can't develop potential people like in the past....it's all about selection now.....SA might eventually be singularly committed....

these are good changes do doubt....but it's happening all too fast that the year 2s might not be able to adapt in time....

we really hope for the best.....

double lives.......

2006-09-23T20:00:00.001+08:00

double lives......hate it

new haircut....school's here....

2006-09-21T11:18:00.000+08:00

new haircut on Tuesday....sponsored by my man ($182)...went to my favourite and trusted hair stylist, juno ay fareast plaza....gotten new highlights....it's the season colour for hair....

thinking of rebonding my hair as well....coz if my hair is not blown straighten daily, my face seems round....haha....

spent my day with my man yesterday coz last day of holidays le.....bought him to ABC market to makan....thanks dino n weixiong for ya cooperation....haha....

school starts today.....aaarrrrhhhggggg.....sianz....my off days are Tuesday and Wednesday....

2nd month anniversary....17th sept

2006-09-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

sunday (17th sept) is our 2nd month anniversary.....he met me just now at 12pm+ and he gotten pink roses for me...we just went dessert makan-ing and now i'm home.....

all smiles........

1st cable car ride.....

2006-09-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

met at 10am in the morning (though i'm late), went walk walk in Great World while waiting for Auntie Anne pretzels to be ready.....sour cream taste the best still....glazing raisins....wwwooo

went for my 1st cable car ride in my life with my man today....it was fun.....it cost $10.90 a person for a return trip, then you can visit The Jewel Box, Mount Fabar, HarborFront....$12.90 for admission to sentosa....$17.90 for the fully glass cable car.....took quite a lot of pics from our cable car view.....heee***

the normal cable car....

the fully glass cable car....

our legs in fully glass cable car.....

out from Harborfront Tower ll....

view from our cable car....

heading towards sentosa....

asian village....didnt know it still exist...

the whole ride took about 30mins plus....quite enjoyable.....but worth 1 ride in your lifetime the most....haha....think we gonna try the cable car dinner in the near future....it cost from $88-$159 a person.....

school's gonna start soon.......gonna switch back to busy mode.....3 days of school.....fyp....SA and ot forgetting my PP, which i haven't start....thinking of what to do after my diploma....continue uni i suppose.....

indugle in dark chocolate

2006-09-14T19:05:00.000+08:00

indugle::

big auntie is here and i'm cramping like mad.....guys will never understand the cramps, pain, bloating feeling, diarrhoea, blood staining of undergarments, constant toilet visits, constant changing of santiary pads, constant checking if bottom kena stained, uncomfortable feeling in sitting, standing, walking and any other actions....mood will feel sianz, restless, sleepy, wanting to hug someone, drink something warm.....guys, be good to girls....

i'm indugling in my chocolate delights (thanks to my man for buying them)...choices from cookies, to ice cream, to chocolate pieces, to hot coco drinks... chocolate stimulates release of braintransmitters, enabling one to feel relax and good....guys, buy some for your girls.....

past 48hours::

last night i spent time with my man till 2am....we went great world to have our dinner then went aracde to play games....man, we had fun....

slept at 4am, overslept and woke up at 7.50am to prepare to bath and all to go for FYP....thankfully he's fetching me to school...or i will be late like dunno what time coz meeting at 9am....did our agar plates, slacked in lab to wait for LB broth to be autoclaved, finished up by 12pm....accompany my fyp mates while they had their lunch and me waiting for him to fetch me for lunch....

went for lunch, then was sent home to have my beauty sleep and he continue with his work....

updates::

dino and weixiong gonna get their NS postings soon....dunno where they going, hopefully somewhere near to our homes.....haha...then can meet without distance problems....let them slack man....

my grades are out.....2As (FYP & Lab management) and 2 B+ (Pharmacotherapy and Pharma Law).....school gonna start soon.....sianz sianz sianz.....

nature shots....

2006-09-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

sat we went trail walking from Lower Peirce to Upper Peirce reservoir.....some nice pics of the nature....

after the 2 hour walk....we went to the prata man now known as The CASUARINA CURRY REST. & CATERING....located @ 126 Casuarina Road Off Upper Thomson Road, next to Lower Peirce reservoir.....it serves THE BEST ROTI PRATA IN THE WHOLE OF SPORE and it's CHEAP....it's so "crackingly" NICE, not too soft nor hard....we thought they oven baked or deep fried the prata to create the effect....we went to kapo and observe....NO....normal flat pan frying like any other prata shops....their fish curry is good too.....

looking forward to tomorrow....where i have FYP in the morning till dunno what time.....and a date with my man....tata~~~

sinful but yummy desserts.....

2006-09-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

sinful but yummy desserts.....lost some weight, so he rewarded me with some dessert....heee***

on wednesday....i had my awfully chocolate hei ice cream at upper thomson area (sembawang hills)......that was some great bitter sweet tasting ice cream.....but the shops are located at quite wulu places....so check out their webby for maps n all ya....http://www.awfullychocolate.com/index.html

it's $3 for a scoop and $5 for double scoop....

would love to try their cakes soon.....heee***

today, friday.....went toys'r'us to look at the latest toys....played swords with him (those soft soft kind for kids)....

i finally ate the summertime carrot cake and chocolate banana cake from room of dessert.....bought from waterloo centre....we bought 2 slices of summertime carrot cake and a slice of banana cake ($10 in total)....http://www.roomfordessert.com.sg/index.htm

taste quite nice....the chocolate banana was good....the carrot cake was crunchy with the nuts and all....

tapao our cakes and went to our favourite spot at kranji, near the nursery.....enjoying the cakes, the chilling weather in the comfort of his car.....

after which....napped for almost an hour in his car.....he's been really sweet and great....accommodating to order for me my diet food (meals excluding noodles and rice)....

exercise time tomorrow.....gonna go trail walking.....

this week was....

2006-09-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

accompanying my man at work for the past 3 days.....trying to spend time with him now coz when school starts, i have no time for him.....

met him for breakfast in the morning....went to a nice park.....how i wish my life would be like that in the future, sit by a cool, nice scenary place, enjoying the company of my man/friends....

today went for SA Fundraising Presentation.....interesting, did my usual rounds of getting them to clarifying, thinking deeper and wider (shooting as your say)....that's leadership to me....guiding them to expand their mindset....they are doing just fine.....

rendall....do think through what we said ya.....

after all the work....dino, weixiong, amin, jae, john, dunfu, clinston, kah hao and me went acrcade playing.....FUN FUN FUN....for us to destress.....played the car racing thinky, as usual, last spot....man....

took pics neoprints with them....will upload the neoprints soon....for now....enjoy some pics....

went shopping a while at causeway point then went home......and gonna be a good girl tonight....

our saturdays are always great....

2006-09-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

wwoooo....met him at 10.30am, went for simple breakfast of toasted bread, eggs and milo....

then....drove to rifle range road....then started our MacRitchie Walking Trail at 11.25am.....then walked, and walked....dunno what's the trail's name....reached HSBC tree-top walk at 12.25pm....then walked via rifle range link....the finally out to his car by 1.30pm...a 2 hours walk, estimated 10km of trail....greens, soil, insects, water, wells.....we had a great time....

some pics from the HSBC tree top view....

gonna try out bukit timah nature reserve trail soon as well....more exercising means more burning of my fats....heee***

chiem and meaningful saying: Just like an onion, the relationships in your life have many layers -- and as you dig deeper, tears could result.

adventurous night

2006-08-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

.....mount fabar....i love strolling with him....

adventurous night it is as well....both of us loved tonight......

more surprises in the future....

fruitful days

2006-08-26T19:01:00.000+08:00

been occupied with fyp these days....lab lab lab....agar plates....agar plates....bacteria....bacteria....thanakha....thanakha....face mask....face mask.....a lot to do but enjoyable as i have very cute fyp mates....heee**** sarah, ester, heidi and eunice..... =D

he's been really sweet....sending me to school for my meetings and fyp and fetching me home after my sessions.....he's simply the best so far....see the word 'so far'....the future is hard to predict....

have our pics taken finally....not convenient to post it here....my close buddies come to me ya.....

pics again

2006-08-23T19:39:00.000+08:00

these non-coloured ones look better man....trying to act seductive and sexy sia....HAHA~~~

holidays

2006-08-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

it's officially school holidays....but only 4 short weeks...

and i booked for many meetings and final year project lab sessions....

why is that when a guy treats you the best in the world, and the gal still feels it's so overwhelming that she's not too use to it? isn't that what all gals dream of having?
confusing mind and heart of mine....maybe i'm not as dramatic as i thought i would be...

17th august....1st mth anniversary....

2006-08-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

17th august 2006....thursday.....1st month anniversary....

one rose per month anniversary.....let's see how many roses i will get....

in his car....

holidays....will be....fyp-ing....sa-ing....pp-ing....poly forum-ing....

mushy entry...so not me....

2006-08-17T10:46:00.000+08:00

this entry is so mushy, so not my style. but it's what my heart feels, i had forgotten how it felt. thanks to him, my heart starts to feel again.

he sent his car for servicing, therefore he's trying out public transport. so cute of him. he even sms me to ask me what bus to take from his company to commonwealth mrt to meet me. waited for him at the bus stop, in case he missed the bus stop. saw him alighting from the bus, he look so cute and lost. lol~~~

then we took mrt to orchard, walked to cineleisure, bought our movie tickets for click, went makan @ subway. shared a classic tuna, exchanging of words and looks at each other. catched our movie, CLICK, it's a great one. made us cherish the people around us more and also each other. the part where adam sandler rewind to the last moment he saw his dad. i cried man, and he comforted me.

after which, we took bus 123 back to bukit merah interchange. went makan fish soup. then went to mount fabar safra for BOWLING. we played 5 games, my highest score 109. i had a total of 4 strikes from the 5 games, shitty score. haha, but i'm not a pro ok. he played quite well. it was our 1st sporting activity. love it.

he had been sending me home at this while, so i decided to send him home, probably the 1st and the only time. haha. took bus then mrt and send him to his homely mrt.

a typical date for couples, but it's him that made it totally special for me. wanna neoprint and photo the next round.

good news: predicted module grade for lab management is A. yeah!!!

. : Warwick Dionne - I'll Never Love This Way Again : .

2006-08-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

. : Warwick Dionne - I'll Never Love This Way Again : .

You looked inside my fantasies and made each one come true,something no one else had ever found a way to do.

I've kept the mem'ries one by one, since you took me in;and I know I'll never love this way again.

I know I'll never love this way again,so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again, hold on, hold on, hold on.

A fool will lose tomorrow reaching back for yesterday;I won't turn my head in sorrow if you should go away.

I'll stand here and remember just how good it's been,and I know I'll never love this way again.

I know I'll never love this way again, so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again,hold on, hold on, hold on.

I know I'll never love this way again, so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again,hold on, hold on.

man, what a song.

my eye problem update: had an inflammation, mast cells accumlation, causing some crystal like substances to accumlate under my right eyelid. gonna use a eye drop 3 times a day for 1 week to recover. next week thurs gonna go back for another consultation, do a 3 hours pupil dilation (where i will be temporary blind) to check if i have any brain issues. he will be by my side. i will be ok.

so much to do for SA....i'm pacing myself to settle the things 1 by 1.....

pics

2006-08-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

singapore night skies on 12th aug 2006 (sat)

singapore land on 12th aug 2006 (sat)

everyone needs that affirmation...

2006-08-13T10:42:00.000+08:00

we all need affirmation.....from someone else.....

ignore the bad...focus on the fun...

2006-08-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

whoever my him refers to only my closest friends know....those who don't know....don't guess the wrong person....

had a wonderful time watching fireworks with him on tuesday @ marina south....nearly "caught" the fireworks...they were so close to me.....lovely fireworks....much nicer than the ndp i heard from my friends....

wednesday was fun with him.....

today he accompanied me to get a referral letter for my right eye at alexandra hospital....think there's something in my right eye....man....hopefully it's not a growing tumor or rapturing soon blood vessel under my eyelid....haha

i'm getting use to his and mine schedule....so ya....enough of him....i'm not women who can't stop talkig about him...

COWS was great....job well done to Jacy, Jae and Committee....i just love SA so much....love it when people are in the flow and vision of making our IG a better one....

those not interested in all these bigger picture but only looking at you and yourself, stay away from disturbing the rest. Come to me personally.

amin gonna go malaysia soon.....

dino and weixiong are coming out and asking me to east coast on sat.....man...the sun...and dino is gonna force me to go under the sun.....ahhhh....20 mins under the sun without suscreen will cause the skin cells to die off.....

balancing my studies, personal life and SA is my greatest achievement....i will never let my personal life to compromise my intergity in leading my IG....so don't doubt my character as SA's President....if you are unhappy about me, come to me directly.....

pics and more pics....

2006-08-07T11:26:00.000+08:00

i had a great day....

2006-08-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

SA MC AY06/07 is out....glad to see capable people in the committee....i will continue to serve as P....

after which....he surprised me by fetching me....went for dinner then we went supermarket shopping with him yesterday....bought the stuffs i needed for cooking and our picnic the next day.....

woke up at 6am to start cutting fruits and preparing the simplest dish in the world....pasta....heee***then he picked me up at 915am....we went changi point beach....

had out picnic....lay down to chat, read magazine....he massaged me....i napped for 1/2hour....it was a lovely picnic.....after which details are not convenient to reveal....i had a wonderful day with him.....his 1st bouquet of roses for me.....

tired now....gonna collect my contact lens tmr....

haiz....

2006-08-01T21:51:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for askin more

i hate myself for bein jealous

i hate myself for bein the x factor

i hate myself that i need u

i hate myself for showin dat face of mine

i just hate it.....

it's only been 2 weeks and i'm tired....i dun wanna be with someone of so many restricitions

i dun wanna be sad when you say those words to me

i dun wanna i dun wanna.....

every sat is enjoyable....

2006-07-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

once again another lovely sat with him....

he's gentle...he's lovely....he's cute.....

i look forward to spending my time with you.....

tell me when will you be mine???